Personal Post: Sharon and Our Last Conversation

Lisa
February 3, 2024

. Last year, I met a girl named Sharon. She had lost her son, like me and that's where our friendship began. The week after we met Sharon found out she had breast cancer. The cancer was already advanced, and she had to get a mastectomy right away. I remember after the surgery, when she woke up, she texted me. She told me she was in the hospital and she didn't know why, but she wanted to go home. Shed forgot that she was sick. It broke my heart that I was going to have to be the one to remind her. I said, "You cant leave, you just had a big surgery." "I did?", she said. I told her, "They had to take your boobs." She said, "Hold on." Then she came back and said, "They did! I want them back!" After that, things went downhill fast. She was in her 40's like me and she was already getting confused and hallucinating, the cancer was in her brain. It happened so fast.

4 Days before Sharon died;

She asked me what I thought Heaven would be like. I told her that I thought it would be so beautiful, that there's nothing you can compare it to on earth. Then I said, "I bet your son is waiting for you and he is going to show you around." Then I explained that I think when you die, you just close your eyes here, and when you open them up, you're there already. Then I asked her what it felt like to be dying? She said it felt like "Nesting" That period right before you have a baby, when you feel an urgency to prepare.

3 Days before Sharon died:

Sharon decided to go ahead and shave her head, which is a difficult decision for anyone. Her daughter Maddy, out of love, surprised her and shaved her head with Sharon. It was a very special experience, that really brought them closer.

2 Days before Sharon died:

Sharon had red hair before she shaved it, so I bought her a long red hair wig that day, but wasn't able to tell her because she was sleeping all the time. She woke up confused and was coughing up blood. I told Maddy that she needed to go to the hospital, now, and to call an ambulance. I was afraid she had internal bleeding. When she got to the hospital they admitted her right away and put her in ICU.

The day Sharon died:

She texted me that morning asking me why they were trying to save her. She told me she was dying and there was no point in trying to save her. A little later she texted me asking me why all of the nurses were in her room all the sudden. I knew right then, she was about to die, all the nurses were there because her vitals must have changed, and they knew. I was right. The next thing she said was, "I see my son" I said, "I said if you can reach his hand, grab on to it." then she told me he was really close, so I said, "Go with him." She responded saying, "I can touch his fingers." I told her I loved her and to go with him. then she told me she loved me, I said, "I know you do." then she asked me if she could close her eyes, I told her yes. The last text she sent said good bye and to take care of Maddy. I said, "I will" and then she was gone.

I was unsure about death before that. Witnessing her passing, she wasn't scared, her son just showed up, took her hand, and she left with him. Almost exactly like what I told her I thought it would be like. It was beautiful. I look forward to the day I see my son again, and after that, I KNOW I will see him one day again soon. Getting to experience that with her gave me so much hope that I really needed.

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Hello!  My name is Lisa, and I am a Borderline.  
Updated on February 3, 2024